I believe I'm a victim of Intrusion Upon Seclusion.
I had a powerful spiritual experience after my last deployment. I started perceiving voices in my head. I believe I am a prophet but the doctors diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder. It's been over 8 years since I started perceiving the voices in my head.
When my problems began, my ex-wife conspired with my father to leave me. She, evidently, wanted full custody so she could move out of state. I didn't know her plans at the time and I was very surprised when she started building her case against me. Her and my father began visiting the magistrate and lying about my condition. They had me involuntarily committed many times. Eventually, we went to court and my ex-wife was awarded full custody of our children. She moved in with a man before we were even divorced. Soon after the divorce, she married the man and moved out of state. She wouldn't give me contact information for her or the children.
My mental health suffered tremendously. I began thinking that she and the kids were victims of a human trafficking scheme. I contacted the FBI and expressed my concerns. They took my report, investigated, but, wouldn't communicate with me any further. I heard through my parents that they had located my children. Whenever I would call the FBI to verify, they would hang up on me. They were very rude.
This year, I, believing myself to be a prophet as opposed to being schizophrenic, sent some messages to the CIA through their website. I shared information that was related to the war I served in and religion in general. I never received a direct response, though, they did send someone to make contact with me, it seems, at a local gas station. The man maintained a cover but mentioned details relevant to things I had mentioned in my emails. I also had two strange experiences with civilians I arranged dates with on a dating app; they also mentioned specifics from the emails I had sent to the CIA.
Some strange things started happening on my social media accounts. I had an Arabic friend who was not a citizen. I sent him a message and within a week or so, his accounts were inactive and I lost contact with him. I have a Persian-American friend who I also sent a message to. He stopped communicating with me almost immediately after I made contact with him. I have 3 local friends who reported strange things happening to their cell phones after becoming my friend.
Local police have been acting very strange, too. I expressed concern about criminal activity based on my initial impression of my hacked network and communication device. The deputy I spoke to on April 6, 2021 took my driver's license and then, basically, told me to be on my way. I didn't realize he kept my license until days later. I called repeatedly and finally the deputy who was on duty that day denied ever taking my license. They sent police to my house with a canine, as well, but they did not knock on the door. They staged themselves next to my house and I saw them when I looked out my bathroom window but they left without making contact. My neighbor, I think, saw this and it upset him and his wife. I can't really explain why it happened, either.
I think I'm under surveillance and I think the surveillance team has investigated my social media contacts. This is very dangerous for me. People are not happy when their privacy is compromised.
The most appalling thing that I have noticed is strange images appearing in my search results. The images were of a sexual nature and they were strange and redundant. They would appear in different search results multiple times. They were odd enough to catch my attention and I definitely never clicked on the images. It seemed whoever was monitoring my network was also placing images in my internet search results.
It seems that the investigator also accessed one of my social media accounts and sent a friend request to my son's girlfriend. I would never do something like this. I wasn't even aware it had happened until my son contacted me and he was very upset. I tried to explain to him that I would never do anything like that but the damage is already done. His girlfriend doesn't feel comfortable around me and my son hasn't visited me since.
I send messages to myself addressing the investigators asking them to leave me alone. I sent a message to my mental health team expressing my concerns, but, most mental health providers will assume I'm just crazy if I tell them I'm under federal surveillance.
It is taking a toll on me. I'm scared to make friends or contact my old friends for fear that they will come under scrutiny or be subjected to some similar kind of investigation. I'm having nightmares about being chased. I also had a nightmare about my underwear being cut off of my body with scissors which, I think, is evidence that I feel like my private life has been severely violated. I don't want to oppose the federal government. I just want my privacy back. I just want them to leave me alone.
Do you have any advice?